Socially Averse

To date my blog has been private. Seems like a great way to express myself to the world yet no one knows.

The law of attraction leads me to imagine that one day my blog will be read by many a people. That is the dichotomy. I want to be social yet am so very alone!

There is a void within that leads me to think that being social and having friends is really meaningless!

At the end of the day every one ditches you and moves their own spearate ways!

Atleast here whilst blogging I can be myself without fear of persecution or people finding out as to who I really am.

Perhaps I am one of the few people to have deactivated my account on Facebook. Why? Because it is full of artifical beings who are not really ever living upto what they say...

But isn't that what life really is... I let the world give me an answer to this point...

Hate being poor!

Everyone wants to win! Acorss the board we live in a society that is driven by money. Individuals take the responsibility of life! The lives we lead today are driven by globalization.

I have nothing against the phenomenon. We can never turn our backs to it. But, I have this urge and desire to move out of this vicious cricle of poverty that is dictated by the money we have.

Five years down the line I want to earn enough to be able to buy anything that I want. But, the question is how much.

Do I have an action plan? Are there clear goals in that I am pusuing! No! No! No! The challange now is to re-draft my Vision 2016! When will it happen is the question

My Fancy

This is my latest facination! I am in awe of the marvel of the aircraft! I want to travel in one so bad! Hope to do it soon!

LiFe

This is my version of life as I see it & experience it. Over time my pain & suffereing grew. I had to learn to deal with it. It was all but easy. However, it always will be like this I guess.Life is not easy. I believe it is an assesment that never ends.

True maturity comes when we learn to deal with change and mature as individuals. This is and the bolgs to come give and insight of my understanding of life.

Gung ho!

Anger

Anger

Today I feel helpless. I do not know what to do and what to think. My life is confusing. I do not know where I am headed. I preach to the world. But, internally I am absolutely clueless.

Right now I am short on words- do not know where I am going. I feel angry. Angry at my own self! I feel rage! This rage is directed towards my own self. I am too kind to feel hate for anyone else in the world. That is not what my Chemistry is.

I feel sad and upset. Funnily enough I have everything in the world but can never understand why I feel so helpless. I have the skill and competence but, I couldn’t be bothered to use them for my own betterment. I have never done well the world and the universe hates!

Am I a bad person! If not why don’t I do well academically? But the eternal question is that academics aren’t everything are they!

Life goes on as it never ends. I am helpless! That is what I think. No one even places a comment on my blog. But that is ok! It is not that good!

I am glad that I am making an effort. That is what counts. One day I will be bigger than the richest of the world! I can’t wait to get there!

Randomness

Across the board one faces challenges. What is the nature of these challenges? I presume that anything from an ant bite to a big test coming up can be a challenge. I want to experience life up close and personal. However, I have ben unable to do that.

I have many challenges that span from university to work to familty. But at each and every instant I know one thing for sure. Life contiunes on! As a person I am secrative but, who isn't?

Today I admit to the world that I am an insecure creature. Well the fact of the matter is no one reads my blog! So I can get away with that.

Many a times I wonder what direction my life is taking. But, I know that somehow all the puzzels eventaulls fit. But these pieces are complex and call for dogged determination to sort. I will one day through this act of radom scripting understand the dynmaics.

Who am I? What are my roots? Can I succeed in life? Why does the world around me collapse?
Those are the questions I have.